I Want To Be Ok!

I tried a lot to write something but It is very difficult. Cause thoughts,emotions,feelings hardly can be written. I have been used, friends hurt me and everything inside me is dead. . . . . . I am not mad with them... I mad with me. Cause I never get it over. I never stop crying. I never could support myself in a difficult situation. I feel like I am the weakest person in the whole world, and if you leave your self it leaves you too. I don't want that anymore. I want to be strong not the pity little girl I am right now. I want to be OK.. just OK...