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I Want To Be Turned Into A Woman

In A Heartbeat

By: Rosso70
Written on February 10th, 2013
I wish that I could. It's taken me forty years to figure out what I am and what I want to be which is far too long.

This isn't a particularly well thought out or insightful post because I say I've figured myself out but that isn't 100% correct.

I'm not unhappy. I'm not depressed. I don't hate my life.

I do wish that I was a woman. I envy them for their shape, their curves and their clothes. When I'm dressed as a woman, even incompletely and unconvincingly, I feel wonderful.

But I don't want to be just a guy who wears woman's clothes (as much as I enjoy it). I want to be a woman full time. I want to be perceived and accepted as one.

I doubt it will ever happen for many reasons and, while it saddens me a bit, I will be fine. I'm blessed in many ways and I try not to get hung up on the things that I don't have but the dream is there. Some people dream of mansions. Others dream of exotic sports cars. My dream is a closet full of slinky, sexy, feminine clothes and the body to put them on.
By: Rosso70
Age: 41-45 , Transgender
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  • JacquieTG
    JacquieTG

    I can't say that I came to this late in life but I did take a long hiatus. Like you I'm not unhappy with my life but had things been different when I was younger or for that matter had I been born later I think, no I know, I would have pursued the feminine path as far as it would take me. At this point I am less concerned with passing than I am about feeling good about who and what I am. That's not to say I don't want to look totally feminine because I do, I don't want to look out of place or a freaky guy in a dress, but to pass takes more than clothes and some make up. I was groomed to be in a male role and eventually accepted it (or for a while anyways) which meant that many of the mannerizims that I worked on so hard so as to hide my innerself are now equally difficult to suppress. There are places like The Forth Space in London, UK that will work with TG's and CD's to help them become more feminine - I have them on my wish list.

    Feb 10
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    • Rosso70
      Rosso70

      Thank you. I love EP because it helps to know there are so many people out there like me (us). I hate being in the closet, but that's where my feminine side has to stay. At least for the time being.

      Feb 11
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