I Want to Be Understood By Just One Person
Follow-up On "What's Wrong With Me?" Grammatically Correctly.
By:
phytonym
Written on June 4th, 2007
A while ago, I posted something with the title "What's wrong with me?"
Just because I mentioned sex and kissing, doesn't mean that that's what was wrong. It wasn't about that, it was about how they're maturing faster then me. I guess I'm just a late bloomer.
Right now, I have a friend, who is a boy, who is a good friend, and we spend the weekends hanging out and playing video games. We are really good friends. On the other hand, I have a big crush on him, and my mom says that he has a crush on me. I can't tell if he has a crush on me or not, but the other say, we went to see a play, and at the moment that everything worked out in the play, he held my hand. After that, we had to wait for his dad to pick us up and drop me at my home. During the wait, he apologized, saying "I'm sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable"
I replied saying "No, it was fine." and then I mumbled "I actually liked it" (I'm not sure if he heard the last bit)
After that, I went home, because it was getting late. The next day, we played video games, and hung out. It seemed like we're just friends.
And to make things more complicated, a couple weeks ago, my mom told me something. She told me that he has a mild form of Asperger syndrome.
The one friend that I talk to about stuff like this, says that I should tell him how I feel, But I'm just to shy to talk about stuff like that.
Once again, I just don't know what to do...
He's the only friend that I've had, who even comes close to understanding me, and if I tell him that I like him, and he doesn't like me "in that way" things'll just get weird between us...
PS
Please don't say stuff like "ewwww! dating someone autistic! autistic people are babys!!11"
He acts just like other people, besides the fact that he's smarter, and talks grammatically correctly.
Just because I mentioned sex and kissing, doesn't mean that that's what was wrong. It wasn't about that, it was about how they're maturing faster then me. I guess I'm just a late bloomer.
Right now, I have a friend, who is a boy, who is a good friend, and we spend the weekends hanging out and playing video games. We are really good friends. On the other hand, I have a big crush on him, and my mom says that he has a crush on me. I can't tell if he has a crush on me or not, but the other say, we went to see a play, and at the moment that everything worked out in the play, he held my hand. After that, we had to wait for his dad to pick us up and drop me at my home. During the wait, he apologized, saying "I'm sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable"
I replied saying "No, it was fine." and then I mumbled "I actually liked it" (I'm not sure if he heard the last bit)
After that, I went home, because it was getting late. The next day, we played video games, and hung out. It seemed like we're just friends.
And to make things more complicated, a couple weeks ago, my mom told me something. She told me that he has a mild form of Asperger syndrome.
The one friend that I talk to about stuff like this, says that I should tell him how I feel, But I'm just to shy to talk about stuff like that.
Once again, I just don't know what to do...
He's the only friend that I've had, who even comes close to understanding me, and if I tell him that I like him, and he doesn't like me "in that way" things'll just get weird between us...
PS
Please don't say stuff like "ewwww! dating someone autistic! autistic people are babys!!11"
He acts just like other people, besides the fact that he's smarter, and talks grammatically correctly.
By:
phytonym
Age:
16-18
,
Female
