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I LIVE WITH SCHIZO-AFFECTIVE DISORDER AND ANXIETY. EVERYDAY I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO UNDERSTAND WHAT I LIVE WITH AND WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO LIVE MY LIFE AS NORMAL AS CAN BE. RECENTLY IVE BEEN TRYING TO SIT DOWN WITH MY PARENTS A DISCUSS MY FEELINGS, BUT EACH TIME IT ENDS UP BECOMING AN ARGUMENT. ITS USUALLY BECAUSE I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH RAISING MY VOICE WHICH I CANNOT HELP, IVE TRIED MANY HUNDREDS OF TIMES BUT I ALWAYS END UP RAISING MY VOICE AND THEN MY PARENTS THINK IM TRYING TO START A FIGHT, BUT IM JUST TRYING TO GET THEM TO UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL ABOUT MY DISABILITY. A COUPLE DAYS AGO, I FINALLY BROKE DOWN AND STARTED TO CRY BECAUSE I COULDNT HANDLE THE FACT OF MY PARENTS NOT EVER BEING ABLE TO UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL. SO I CAME UP WITH AN IDEA TO USE FACEBOOK MESSENGER TO TALK TO THEM. I SAT DOWN IN MY ROOM AND MY PARENTS SAT TOGETHER IN THE LIVING ROOM AND WE TALKED BACK AND FORTH FOR OVER AN HOUR ABOUT HOW IVE BEEN FEELING AND WHAT TROUBLES IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH. AND I REALLY THINK THEY UNDERSTOOD. SO NOW IM IN THE PROCESS OF FINDING SOME WEBSITES FOR THEM TO GO ON TO LEARN AS MUCH AS THEY CAN ABOUT THE DISORDERS I LIVE WITH AND I CAME ACROSS THIS SITE, SO IM GOING TO PASS IT ALONG TO THEM. I REALLY HOPE TO GET TO KNOW SOME PEOPLE WHO UNDERSTAND WHAT I UNDERSTAND ABOUT SCHIZO AFFECTIVE. 

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26-30, M
2 Responses Feb 7, 2010

my wife is schizoprhenic. learning to communicate with her has been very difficult. i understand the difficulties you are having with your parents. i had to learn alot about my wifes disorder before i was able to understand what was going on with her and how to help her as best i can. sometimes i still dont do as well as i would like. be patient with your parents. help educate them on what it is you have. (great idea using facebook to talk to them by the way . goo job!) one thing that helped me in learning to deal with my wifes disorder is to understand that it is an illness. nobody would get mad at someone for having cancer or epilepsy would they? this is no different than that.

i do know what you are talking about :) all my best, you will be fine, i believe so