What Is The Price Of Loyalty?

There is a social paradigm. The role of the emotionally detatched, hypersexual "playa" out for nothing but a good time is claimed by men my age, while our female counterparts appear to fill the role of the pining romantic, just hoping to be swept of their feet.

And yet I feel that I, along with those around me, are consistantly on the opposite end of this paradigm. At the risk of upsetting closely held gender expectations, I can't help it if I glean little or no satisfaction from shallow, physical relationships. Don't misunderstand me; I have a very healthy appreciation for the physical expressions of relationships. But at the end of the day what would REALLY make me smile is the peace of knowing that I'm going to spend the rest of my life with the person I am with. I do not understand where the belief originates that it is men who struggle with commitment anxiety. I've never quit anything in my life. And yet I must embark upon the long, frustrating, and discouraging quest to find someone I can connect with on a truly intimite level who will not give up on me.

jtobler jtobler
18-21, M
Mar 2, 2010