I Never Thought I Would Miss You This Much

It has been 3 weeks since we broke up...

I wish I could call you, text you, just to tell you how I miss you. But you already know that. You miss me too. What you said hurt me, what I said hurt you. We overwhelmed one another, for we are made of two different elements. You said we were on hold until things could work better, I said we just weren't right for each other. You tell me you don't see that. You tell me you love me and want me more now than you did before, that your love has only grown for me. You tell me I am amazing and I just don't see it... I see all my flaws.

I have seen girls you would love and cherish, having more fun with than me. Girls who would suit your charming and outgoing personality more then me. You asked me if I thought we were wrong for each other because I thought I wasn't good enough for you. Is that why? We are so similar, yet so different. You annoy me so much, but I also love you so deeply.

I just don't know what to do. I know that we are supposed to be moving on, but the possibility of us getting back together is an overwhelming desire for me. But we would first have to make major life decisions- moving closer together. I want you in my life but I just don't know if it's right. If you were the one for me, would I have so many doubts?
ambrosei ambrosei
18-21, F
Jan 20, 2013