Our Wonderful ConnectionWe met each other in university. I went to tell him something and he said to me: „We have phoned, haven't we?“ I was thunderstruck because my surname is such a common one. Actually the phone call was a few months ago. He couldn't mean that, but he did. From the beginning I was in his focus, but it felt good. As if someone takes care about you. I already liked him very much but I didn't think he was good-looking. I was sure he wasn't my type because he looks so different from the men I was attracted to so far.
He is my lecturer, about 17 years older than me. It went on this way. He was always so kind to me, but that's the way he is. A long time he was just my favourite lecturer till I began to like him more. I wanted him to be my friend. A really good one who you can always ask if you need advice. This was what I told my family and good friends. My sister just shook her head. My family already knew more than I did. I didn't want to fall in love with my lecturer. And I thought he had a wife. I tried to influence my feelings but it was impossible. They were growing and growing. One day I was sitting next to him in a class, when I noticed I was scanning his body, I thought I was getting mad. But in reality I was falling in love with him. I can't stop thinking about him. Now I couldn't ignore this fact anymore. It's the first time I fell in love with someone because of his character, not because of his look. I never thought I could love a man this way but I can. I'm so proud of myself because I don't want to be superficial.
I took all his classes, went to his consultation hour several times and found excuses to see him. I sneaked around the hallway just to hear his voice from the classroom. He has such a great voice!
When I found out that he doesn't live with his family anymore, my hopes were raising.
I guess he already suspected it when I decided to let him know. I made him a big personal compliment, so he would know it for sure.
But I didn't know if he has feelings for me as well. It was hard to figure out, because he is such a correct lecturer. But when time went by he was showing more and more signs that he could feel the same way. Now I'm sure he wants to be with me, too.
I can feel that he is the right man for me, the one I was waiting for so long. He means the world to me and I know that he is the love of my life.
I built him a bridge, but I know he won't go over it, as long as I'm his student. I can't wait to be with him!
ready2fight 31-35 0 Jan 19, 2012