I guess my self loathing is part of my personality. I self-accuse and sabotage. I feel so stupid for doing it. During a really low period I could tell myself I am one ofd the worst people in the world. I feel the TV was helping. It suggested stuff to me and I would take it in. The TV was terribly negative, the news especially.  I am glad not to watch it any more. You know they don't make movies or documentaries or news stories about people who survive abuse and turn out to have normal lives.

I spend my time on EP now and I feel much better for it.

demonizd demonizd
31-35, M
1 Response Feb 26, 2009

tv has a LOT to answer for - i dislike it intensely