I Want To Cheat On My Husband, But...We have been together for 8 years. I feel like we just don't have sex very often, and when we do it just doesn't have the spark it used to. (Very long story) So I called up an ex-boyfriend....
He (the ex) is still very much in love with me. Oh my God! he is charming and sweet and is coming cross country to meet up with me just to talk, no strings. He says he'll wait as long as it takes for me to be ready.
So back home, I feel like my husband is no longer attracted to me. I know he's not cheating. I know he loves me like he loves himself. And yet, I cannot stop thinking about this other guy.
The other guy is in my dreams. He haunts my thoughts. I have even tried to cut him off twice in the last year, but to no avail. He just shows up in my dreams three weeks later and kisses me and says he misses me. Then I call him. And he says, "I never thought I would hear from you again! How are you?"
Then we meet. He lives in California, I live in Massachusetts but I travel for work. He flies in to meet with me when I'm working. We have dinner, exchange glances. But we haven't kissed in reality for ten years.
What can I do? I have tried to rid myself of the other guy, but he won't leave my thoughts. I have tried to fix my relationship with my husband but he still ignores me for the most part. I am unhappy with my sex life at home, but I feel too committed to sleep around. I have never cheated on my husband and some days I want to and others I really don't.
Help me sort this out.