What's The Point

I was emotionally abused growing up and attempted suicide several times and was hospitalized twice. When I was 17, I was kicked out for the third time and my high school choir teacher took me in. they became my parents and I thought things would be ok. The problem is, I have attempted suicide more times in the past 3 years than I did in the 17 years with my birth family. I have cut myself and tried to OD. I don't see any hope in life getting any better. When I tell my adoptive parents that I really just have days where I don't want to be alive, they act like they don't care. I feel like they might as well be killing me themselves. I need to be able to have a fool proof method because if I fail and my parents end up finding out, I will be kicked out of their home as well. There's just no point in continuing living anymore.
An Ep User An EP User
Jan 23, 2013