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I Want to Cry But Can't

Felt Like This For Two Years.

By: SpoonfulOfSugar
Written on April 20th, 2011
I have felt this way for a good two years now. I don't know if it's because I'm numb or if it's because I'm so used to bad stuff happening that I don't bother actually hurting anymore. Maybe I've come to terms that I'll never make friends. Maybe it hurts so bad I can't feel it because the pain is too deep. Maybe the pain is lost and I can't grasp onto it to feel anything so that I can cry. Maybe it's just that I am angry and not sad. Maybe I just swallow my tears and stuff my feelings away. So many maybes and I just want to have a big long cry and I can't.
By: SpoonfulOfSugar
Age: 22-25 , Female
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5 responses
  • RobertDeLoneWolf
    RobertDeLoneWolf

    I can say, i feel you. Within the crying part, just maybe we are already over that. Maybe it is just a phase and we grew out of it. Maybe just maybe that it is our time to be happy. Within the topic of friends thing, I don't really know much because I am within the lucky society i guess where i got friends that I have became the Entertainer, the shoulder and the one in between. But I do know this one thing, to make friends you have to open up first, you have to give someone a chance, or perhaps you have to give yourself a chance.

    Jan 14
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  • sevensecrets2000
    sevensecrets2000

    Prayers for both of you!

    Apr 26, 2011
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  • Jenni855
    Jenni855

    Could completely relate to this, every word.

    Your post really touched me. It was like looking into a mirror. xxx

    Apr 23, 2011
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  • SpoonfulOfSugar
    SpoonfulOfSugar

    Red,



    I believe this is what has happened to me.

    I hope one day I can empty it all out.

    Thanks for sharing, darling



    xoxoxo <3

    Apr 22, 2011
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  • redtailfree48
    redtailfree48

    I think that the emotions are there to cry but you are protecting yourself from the shock of all the things that are going on around you.



    I have done my share of crying, believe me it helps take the pressure off. I feel if you don't then you will go into an emotional shut down or become way too over whelmed. Its like a cap on a bottle filled with bubbly water and shake it a few times too much and the cap will pop.

    Apr 22, 2011
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