Suicide Might Be The Only Good Option..

Today is May 22, 2012. My family got into a big fight because of me. All i do is mess things up.. I try and stand up for the house rules when i know that someone is not supposed to be in the house and i am a *****, ****, stupid and so many other things. I just had a wonderful concert for orchestra and then i come home to world war 3. I always mess things up. I am so tired of doing things wrong. I just want people to realize that i'm not perfect and that i make mistakes and that i shouldn't be hated for doing the things that need to be done. I just want to take a blade to any major artery, like the one in my thigh and pray i bleed to death. I am so done with this. I need to end things. I want to cut so deep that i won't feel any pain anymore..Maybe the pills would be better. When i O.D.'d the first time i didn't feel anything. That's not so bad. I could just go to sleep, pretending i'm not the biggest **** up in the world and it'll be over. Maybe i'll do that. No one will miss me anyway.....
weepingblood21 weepingblood21
18-21, F
1 Response May 22, 2012

I hope you didn't do anything. Mistakes are a part of life. We all make them. Whatever is happening, it will work out. Your life is more precious that you know. Please stay safe.

I am healthy, happy and learning to deal with things better now. I haven't cut in two months.

It's good to hear things are turning for the better for you. I wish you all the best. :)