I haven't cut in... three and a half months. But I've fallen into the darkness again. I've been alone all day. Staring at the knives in the kitchen. And I want so badly to take one of the blades and drag it across my skin until I'm raw and bleeding. I'm scared that I will. No. I'm scared because I know I will. I don't know how to stop myself...
lonleylexi lonleylexi
18-21, F
1 Response Nov 30, 2012

I did it. I'm sitting here watching the blood pool and trying think of why I even did it. But I don't know. All I know is it felt. So. Good.