My Promise....

My Promise to my Fiance, my friends, and My Ep family is one that has been very hard for me to keep, but just because it is hard to keep,d oesn't mean I haven't kept it. I have kept it, and I will always keep it. I will do my best to keep it, and I will do what I can, to make sure I carry out this promise. I Love my friends, and I would never dream of hurting them in any way.

 

Often times, I do become very depressed, very suicidal, and very doubtful about life, and want to cut myself, or take a bottle of pills, and say "**** IT" I don't, and I have made a promise that I would never kill myself, or attempt to again. Sure I still cut, but its not as bad as I use to cut. I have that somewhat under-control, for the most part.

 

I am trying to keep this promise. Even though it is not the easist thing I have ever promised, a promise is a promise none the less, and I am not going to back out of a promise. I will carry it out, and be true to it. I will do what I have to, to keep this promise.

 

My promise to you, is to not kill myself, and everyday that I wake up, and face this world, is another day, that I am staying true to my word. I am a woman of my word, and I won't back down from it, even when its almost impossible to keep going on. I will not let you down, but more important, I will not let myself down, and fail!

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3 Responses Feb 17, 2010

oh, praise God!<br />
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and keep your promise....<br />
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please....<br />
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God bless you dear one...be strong!

You always have us to back you up and keep you strong. I'm proud of your efforts! I know you can do it.

You always have us to back you up and keep you strong. I'm proud of your efforts! I know you can do it.