Just Passed My 55th Birtday, Want To Die While Celebrating Life...

Last week it was my 55th Birthday and I know it now for sure. I want to have one wild weekend with things I haven't done for a long time. A couple of drinks, unprotected sex with (a) stranger(s), etc.and then walk in the ocean, hang myself or have myself murdered.

Not sure when I am going to do it. Not now, can take a couple of months, maybe a couple of years, but is the way I want to go. Death shouldn't come unexpected and also shouldn't be a slow process of hospitalization, aging etc....

wimnj wimnj
51-55, M
May 6, 2012