I Just Want An End

I don't know what is this anymore. I feel so depressed and lonely. I hate doing things, I don't wanna wake up anymore, I don't wanna see or hear anyone, all I think of is death. I wanna die.
I find no joy in anything any more, I feel like no one understands me. When I share my feelings and stories with my friends and see that they don't care, it just makes me feel worse. All my friends know that I'm thinking of a suicide, but I just feel like if they are encouraging me with their silence, and being careless about that and about how I feel.
Bobkree Bobkree
18-21, M
2 Responses Jan 14, 2013

Why talk about killing yourself? If you really wanna do it then just do it and stop bitching about how ypur life is so bad. If you live with your parents still then u probably dont have to go to work everyday and make a liveing, u dont have bills topay, you dont buy ur own food for the the week u dont have the adult responcabilityies of living alone. So go a head and kill urself if you wanna but only you can make ur life beter. Only you can stop feeling sorry for yourself and go to school and get an education and then use that to get a great job so you can get ypur own car and apartment and then live the life u wanna live rather then life the one ur parents make for you while you live with them and eat the food they pay for and use the internet and cable tv they pay for. I am sure you wash with the water they pay for and wear the clothse they buy for you. 
So get off your *** and make your life the way you want it to be rather then just bitching about a life you hate?

I feel just like that.. the only difference I don't have any friends, just my husband whom I make suffer a lot, specially lately. And I despise myself for that!! Aff, I just want to die already! Enough...nothing else for me here, for sure....I am just so tired...so tired....

Sorry to hear that. I'm tired too. but, there's nothing I can do, just have to wait til something happens.

There are always things you can do, Bobkree, and you will feel a bit better when you start, I promise. It's the helpless feeling of hopelessness that is so horrible...your friends likely don't know what to say...a lot of times they feel awkward and probably have no idea how to help you. However on this forum are thousands of people like you...don't give up yet. Hugs

Hi Madgirll, please don't be so hard on yourself. You can't help it if you are depressed so it just makes you feel worse to be hard on yourself. I'm glad you have a caring husband, and I'm sure he wants you to stay around. Please don't hurt yourself because that will destroy him. Keep posting on here, there are people who care. And please get yourself to a doctor if you can. They are very understanding. Hugs

Yes, I made good friends here, it really helps talking to them, and I also have a new friend where I live. She is so amazing, she is the only one to know everything about me, I share everything with here, and she does the same. :)
Thanks dear, it feels good reading others comments too.

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