Dont Know

i dont know how this works or if im in the "right" group. I dont want to be positive right now. i just want a place to "get the guk out." I'm always concerned that my journal will "fall into the wrong hands." I'm soooo tired and I just dont care. not true. i want to cry, maybe just because but it hurts not to be able to spend much time with my grandson without my step-grandson. yeah, i know all the stuff- treat the step equally, love the same... i dont and im not sure i want to. he talks all the time, everything has to be exactly even, fair. he's so maligned... i cant get a word in edgewise or give my grandson a hug without interruption, guilt... im so cranky!
selene456 selene456
56-60, F
Sep 7, 2012