I Want to End Any Pain That Ev...

I want to end any pain that ever existed.
drthbeauty drthbeauty
18-21, F
3 Responses Feb 11, 2007

i am with you. i lost my wife pass April 2 2009. <br />
my wife poem.<br />
Then Almitra spoke again and said, "And what of Marriage, master?"<br />
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And he answered saying:<br />
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You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore. <br />
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You shall be together when white wings of death scatter your days. <br />
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Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.<br />
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But let there be spaces in your togetherness,<br />
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And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.<br />
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Love one another but make not a bond of love:<br />
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Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls. <br />
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Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.<br />
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Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf. <br />
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Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,<br />
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Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.<br />
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Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.<br />
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For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.<br />
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And stand together, yet not too near together:<br />
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For the pillars of the temple stand apart,<br />
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And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow. <br />
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i love to join my wife. my life life is dark everday.

My son took his own life in Jan. I thought I was dealing with the grief pretty well, with the help of friends and counseling. But for the past week or so I have been very, very sad and contiplated suicide, I feel noone really understands and I feel so alone. I just don't feel there's anything to look forward too. I am distanced from my family, and my daughter pushes me away. I am in such pain and it seems the only solution. I don't feel I have much to contribute to society and would like to join my son, my mother, and grandmother all the people I loved.

I'm with you on that one....