What Will Be the Cost?

I have dreamed of going to Alaska and not just seeing the Northern Lights but to actually experience the Aurora Borialis. 

I finally have the chance to go and work in a small Inn just outside of Denali National Park for the whole summer however, my husband was originally going to come too and then changed his mind because his Aunt is having a 100th Birthday Party.

My problem is that even though he said I should go anyway I'm getting mixed signals from him.  He's a good man but he is a little controlling and in the past he has gotten upset when I stayed overnight at my daughter's home to spend time with my grandchildren.  His reasoning was that I put my children before him.  (we've been married 7 years)

In my defense, My entire life has centered around my children, they were my everything until I married against their wishes.  Don't get me wrong they do get along now and even like one another with mutual respect.

I guess I'm wondering if I'm being selfish and risking my marriage just because I want to do something now that I may never have another chance at?  I've never done anything like this before so I'm really worried about what will happen if I do this.

MtnDawn MtnDawn
46-50, F
1 Response Mar 24, 2009

My problem solved itself. Because of a serious illness in the family, I will be going to Colorado instead of Alaska.<br />
I still hope to get to Alaska someday.<br />
Thank you for your advice and I have listened. My marriage may not survive but I will!