I Do, But I Wish Sometimes That I Didn't

Freely?  In my case that's a misnomer.  I express what I feel all the time, but usually through body language and facial expression.  But words....no.  And I wish that I weren't so transparent.  Sometimes I wish that I could do that thing that "so-called normal" people do and smile and say fine and be believeable.  But I do not have that ability.  I can smile.  I can say "fine".  But I'm soooo not believeable.  Even people who are not very sensitive can tell that I'm lying.....  They say, "No, you're not fine"   They don't always go on to ask what's wrong, but they know I'm not really fine.
NebulaNoxx NebulaNoxx
51-55, F
Aug 9, 2010