I Need Strength From My God

As most of you know, i was denied services because no surgeon will touch me in the shape i'm in. They said physical therapy and traction i just can't do. They said it would be to much for me. I thought i found the answer to my life, but it won't happen my friends. I prayed that i would receive a blessing today, but i knew it would fail just by the doctors expression.  So the reality for me is one i'n trying very hard to accept.  I will be stuck in a wheel chair for the rest of my life. I'm sorry, but i can't find my inspiration right now. I know i must come to terms with it, for i can do nothing about it.

I've been crying half the day, i've never felt so useless and desperate. I'm angry, i battling many emotions,  I want to isolate myself and die but i cant. This is the hardest blow i've been given in my life. I will never walk again,  i will never win the gold again. I'm mourning. If i cant do what i love, life isn't worth the trouble. Its what makes me who i am. Have mercy on my weakness my friends.
peachfuzz68 peachfuzz68
41-45, F
3 Responses Apr 2, 2012

When Vonda and I found out our 2nd child Cassandra came with a recall, of course we were heart broke. When ever needed comfort I turned to Matt. 8:5-13 NIV The Faith of the Centurion. My Lord did not heal her as our Sacrifice is part of my testimonial. <br />
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8 The centurion replied, “Lord, I do not deserve to have you come under my roof. But just say the word, and my servant will be healed. 9 For I myself am a man under authority, with soldiers under me. I tell this one, ‘Go,’ and he goes; and that one, ‘Come,’ and he comes. I say to my servant, ‘Do this,’ and he does it.”<br />
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10 When Jesus heard this, he was amazed and said to those following him, “Truly I tell you, I have not found anyone in Israel with such great faith.

You gave me inspiration my friend! i knew i needed to be here to see this, glad i did and didn't go to bed!!!!!! blessings to you and yours, may god shine his face upon you my friend!!

Let your inspiration come from the word of God. I don't know your situation or the circumstances that you have been dealt, but I know that God wouldn't give you more than you can handle.<br />
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[1 Corinthians 10:13] No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.<br />
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So for you, the temptation to give up is right before you and this is where God is saying, "Hold on and fight, trust Me to give you the strength to overcome this.". This is your trail my friend. Look back at what you have already overcome and know who has been with you all along...God, the one who heals all diseases...<br />
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[Psalm 103:3] 103 Bless the Lord, O my soul; And all that is within me, bless His holy name! Bless the Lord, O my soul, And forget not all His benefits, Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases, Who redeems your life from destruction, Who crowns you with loving kindness and tender mercies, Who satisfies your mouth with good things, So that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.<br />
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This is your inspiration.

good passage my friend. thank you.

people say this a lot, but it is more than i can deal with. I bounce back because i must.

When my fibromyalgia reached its peak, I had felt so useless... I suddenly could do so much less. It hit me just how much the pain, the fatigue, and the inevitable depression could affect me, perhaps throughout most or the rest of my life. However, a great deal of my symptoms can be treated, or at least lessened, with medication. If I could feel (and still feel) as horrible as I did from those realisations, I honestly can't imagine how you must feel. However... I think that, with some time and effort, a person can come to terms with, and even overcome, such things. Whenever we get set back, no matter the inevitable end, we must keep trying - must keep going. For, if we don't keep trying, we might simply lose everything, and not just what we already lost.<br />
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If I were told this, I might get mixed emotions. I might think that some of it is upsetting, even. I'm can't predict how you may take it, but I do hope that it instils at least some degree of hope. How can you find light... if you don't search for it? From the little I've seen and heard of you, I believe you have the will to search and search for that light, and I believe you'll find it.

You're right my friend.