Scared, Dont Know What To Do.

I am freaking out right now earlier in the year I was madly in love with this guy in the military he ended up breaking my heart and dating some other girl a week before he was deployed. I then found someone else although it wasn't intentional we had the most amazing 2 months together and I felt like he could be the one. However, being in the military he was restationed to another state. When he left I fell into a deep depression I began sleeping with other guys to fill a void in my heart I even wanted to die some days because the pain was unbearable. Now it has been many months later and I deeply regret what I did because it was not worth it. One of the guys I was with ended up giving me chlamydia. I found this out 5 weeks after the last time we did it. I also got a hiv test at the same time and it was negative. It has now been 6 months since my last test and I am scared to death of my results, I have been having weird symptoms that I think might be hiv. I just need some advice and what do I do if I test and find out I am positive?
peppermint1821 peppermint1821
18-21, F
3 Responses Dec 8, 2012

You've made some very wrong decisions. But we all do sometime in our lives. I think the most important thing is to learn from them. The only visible early HIV symptom is a fever. And people do get fever often you know. But it is important that you do go and get tested. I'm sure you're not gonna test positive, but let this be a lesson to you. You can't let your feelings overrule your reasoning and morals. They need to be in balance. Guys do not respect girls who sleep with them without any second thought. They might put on their smiling faces, but in the back, they don't think twice about you.

Well...the most important thing is you learned from your mistakes...we've all made them, they seemed like ok choices at the time, had one scare...the chances are you don't have HIV..just thank the good lord above you are given another chance to live and learn

Well you just have to take it day by day. I know its scary to even think you might have HIV but, its not possitive yet and you may be phyching yourself out and thinking up these sypmtoms!!?? As for the possiblity that the test may come back possitive, I'd say, all one can to is live life to the fullest and work with what you have. Cherish the moment, dont dwell on the past or stress over the future! I wish you well =) p.s. I'm here if you need friend