How Did This Happen

I have been married for almost 16 years and in the past two years I have felt myself growing away.  Mind you my husband has been the only man in my life.  I am 38 years old.   I miss the early years of butterflies in my stomach when he smiles at me and that warm and fuzzy feeling I use to get.    I think I was the one who screwed it up as I keep dwelling on the fact that I have never experienced anothers touch.  I joined a social networking site and started chatting with someone.  Told you I was the screw up.  For 2 years I have talked with this someone.  Never more than talking online or on the phone.   Now I feel so silly and stupid. How did I go from a women who desired her husband to talking to a stranger?  How do I respark things with my husband.  I feel as if I am beneath the dirt on the ground....

loveagain loveagain
36-40, F
Mar 9, 2010