Well...

i've been in past relationships where the guy would say he loved me, but i never really felt that way about them. i thought something was wrong with me for not feeling the slightest bit of adulation toward them. i would have to fake the affection for them and i knew that that was wrong but i didn't want to hurt them but i didn't care for them, but only as a friendship. i guess i just make falling in love hard or is that i just havent found that person that connects with me emotionally or physically....uncontrolled passionate romantic love. i don't know.



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Unfocused Unfocused
26-30, F
8 Responses Jul 12, 2010

Sorry to have you bring up this memory...<br />
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I appreciate your response... and I'll keep you in my prayers that one day your heart will heal...<br />
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God bless,<br />
Angel

I did write a letter. Never sent it. I think I know why. My friends tell me that he is UNSTABLE. He is not comfortable with a good true love because he never had a good love , and he has low self esteem.<br />
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On the toss side of that coin, I do believe and still believe that he loved me. He had it in his eyes.<br />
When I tried to get closure, he told me he only wanted to be friends. I looked at him, told him to give me a kiss goodbye (he did so) and I left. <br />
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Whatever the case, you can't make someone love you or force them to have you as part of their life.<br />
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I can truthfully say it is the most painful breakup I have ever experience.,<br />
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I try to hand it to God daily but it doesn't seem to fade the love.<br />
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Thanks for sharing. God bless.<br />
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Bev

no problem... you have opened my eyes to how he may have felt... <br />
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have you ever tried to write him a letter... don't send it... just write him a letter expressing everything to him and how you feel... it wont stop the pain all the way, but it should ease it...<br />
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also i think it has a lot to do with closure.... things ended so abruptly that there wasn't any real closure to it. you still have that burning question... "Why?" and without that response it will still be there.

Thanks for responding. But the pain still hasn't ceased..sigh

well a few things you will get out of it is a new sense of who you are, who you will be, and what you are looking for.... they say past relationships help us with future relationships... <br />
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some people are here for just for a season... and others are here for a lifetime...

I will go to my grave loving this guy. I don't know why but I will.<br />
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Don't give up. Love will find you

@slimsadie i broke things off with him... not telling him the full truth... the sad thing is i did loose a good friend. I wish things were different, but we didn't match well on the intellectual basics. you can't have a relationship strictly off of physical attraction, and honestly thats all that it was even though we were friends first.<br />
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@mysweetangelbaby (love that name btw) it does hurt when the love isn't reciprocated... but staying in that relationship wouldn't have been healthy for the either of us... i cared for him, but i knew that love wasn't there.... i just want to fall in love with someone that is more than physical... you know.

I just experienced all of that falling in love stuff but the guy bailed. He got scared and didn't want the responsibility.<br />
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With great difficulty I am trying to move on. You know, that old saying it is better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all.<br />
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PS It still sucks to love and not have it returned.