I Want To Fall In Love

I'm 26 and I've never been in a serious relationship. I've been on dates, but never been able to get especially close to anyone. Usually I just wasn't attracted to the guy; I'd go out to give things a try, or because someone set me up, or because I felt awkward never going out. I've never been out with someone that I really looked forward to going out with. Sometimes I think that maybe I'm broken, that I just can't fall in love.

Often I'm ok by myself. When I'm working or whatever, then I'm busy and don't think about it. But at night when I get into bed, I'd give so much to have someone next to me. I worry I'll never have that. I don't know why I can't have it, but it just feels like that will never happen for me.