Want To Finally Experiencing Love And Romance...

Who doesn't want to feel blissful, cared for, cuddled and sweet talked to? I have never experienced being in a relationship with someone and the wanting hit me recently. Not on lust, but the wants to have a person, a soul mate.

Just a while back I had my first crush at 20 years old, whom I gave up to not taint my views on him and to react weirdly around him, not when I didn't plan to confess and bring our relationship further. I think I got over him but not the wants.

I am confused by the ache and breathlessness from the wants. It is as if after being solo for a couple of decades my heart and body ache for somebody to depend upon. But my mind stays rational,for I am still sober and not give in to my desperation so I will not have tainted eyes and merely choose anyone.

I wish for a mutual first love and best he loves me more than I do initially, as I hope I will not live to see my lover has divided his love for another party.

I am nervous and I am not sure if I'm prepared to let somebody into my life, for I have been independent for years. I am not certain if I can accept the changes. But I am willing, hoping, for someone to accept me and lead me to this new experience and part of life.

And my wish is, please don't let me wait for too long, my someone.
ellen183 ellen183
22-25, F
1 Response Dec 15, 2012

Beautifully said.

Thanks :)