I keep everyone at arm's length, including my best friends. I feel like I can't share who I am with them, no matter how sure I am that they won't judge me for it. ANd they know I hold back, hold a lot back.

I want to be able to be open, to share things with people. But I don't even like knowing those things about myself. Things I think don't feel like they come from my own head. And that scares me. Telling someone else those things....

I am who I am, but I want to be judged on my actions - not the random things that go through my head.

I've never really been close to anyone, not like I want to be. And I know that I will essentially be alone forever if I don't learn how to share who I am with someone else.

eyes eyes
31-35, F
Mar 19, 2009