A Ship On Fire

There are a lot of people in my life that I am ready to do anything for. But I feel as if there isn't anyone when I need to just say a few things. A few years back I wouldn't have complained about this....

Life was on a fast track few years back. My family is one weird family. There are people who don't care about anyone or anything save themselves. And then there are those who would do anything for me. But that was as long as I was a child. Now, no one has time to waste on me. Even if it means just sitting with me for a few minutes to ask how I am doing. I never needed anyone all this while because I had the girl I loved in my life.... She seemed to fill every gap that was there. It was like a fairy tale for me. Everything just seemed to work.... I will carry with me the memories of those five years that I have spent with her right up to my grave....

And then one day life just collapsed. A phone call in the middle of the night woke up up. The man at the other end just blabbered that the girl that I loved so much, lost her life in a train accident. I remember just sitting over there for for well over half an hour not knowing what to do.... how to react..... what to say...whom to say....

It has taken so much out of me to get out of that shock.... I want to carry on. The way she wanted me to.... And I know i will.... I feel the worst is behind me now....

jaykain jaykain
22-25, M
2 Responses Feb 25, 2009

i'm glad you're tryin to get back on the right track though:)

i am sorry..