.. Like I'm Worth Something.

I feel like I'm just here to be here. I'm not worth anything special to anyone. I feel like if I were to just disappear, nobody would miss me. Nobody would even care to think that I was gone.

I want to feel real. Real as if I'm actually living for something. Like I exist. .. Like I'm worth something.

I honestly feel like crying because I just pointed the fact out to myself that it's true. And yeah, my family members and "close relatives" would miss me. They're suppose to. It's like some golden rule. In reality, I feel unreal to the world.. and somewhat unrealistic to myself in some deranged way.. I'd like to just feel like I'm worth something.. Maybe I do this to myself, but I don't know how I'm doing it.