My Intro Story

My friend had a baby 3 months ago, and I just started babysitting her right after Christmas. I think that is what has kicked my long-time urge to breastfeed into overdrive these past few weeks. My youngest just turned 15, so it has been about 14 years since I dried up, but I've always continued to have the urge to breastfeed. Lately, it's gotten to the point where I actually bought a breast pump today without my husband's knowledge with the intent to start inducing lactation.

I'm so scared what he will think of my urge that I can't bring myself to tell him... I'm hoping that one day I'll start lactating and he will "accidentally" get a taste and love it. I'll easily be able to explain away my "spontaneous" lactation... blame it on my birth control and hormones... and hope he doesn't want me to "fix" it.

I bought a pump, but I really long for the real thing. I really want someone to suckle me. But in my book (and my husband's) that would be considered cheating to have someone else do it. And for some reason, I have an even stronger urge to breastfeed a woman.

Luckily, my husband is nearly obsessed with my breasts. Who knows? Maybe he wants to be nursed but can't imagine telling me about his urge...

Imagine my relief when I decided to Google search "urge to breastfeed" and stumbled upon this site, which has let me know I am far from alone in this matter.

Anyway, that is my intro story. Maybe I'll have more to write about another time. Right now, I need to get some sleep before my friend's baby gets here. It's exhausting to spend the whole day resisting the urge to take her to my breast.
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3 Responses Jan 9, 2013

I'll do it for ya!! No cheating either!

You should seriously consider breastfeeding the baby.........just explain your urge & ask permission to feed her baby,,,,,she is your friend, she will be able to understand your urge & desire

Welcome to the World of Understanding!