I Wish That Someone Would Tell Me What To DoI have no idea what I want to do in life, I'm 23 already I just don't know what path I am suppose to take or what is expected of me. It is sad actually because my dad always says to me where do you see yourself in ten years and I keep asking and asking that question to myself in ten years my dad will be a old man he'll probably be retired and my mother two they'll have nobody to look after them the way they need because I have difficulty finding a job and keeping one.
I don't understand why I can't keep my jobs or why I can't get any answers I wish to know what direction is the correct one to go that is all. The rest I'll sort out. I've had incredible near death experiences. Like one I rode on my scooter and the road was wet the light was green for me my brakes weren't working well and suddenly I had to brake for a car that shifted into my lane right before me and a clear, extremely clear voice in my head you have two choices brake now and end your life or break slowly it will hurt but you will live.
I screamed back at it I want to live I was afraid of death still am and I did like instructed. Another close encounter with a taxi skipping a red light I didn't have a voice but I knew to drive slower for some reason, a third happened lately my family was in the car and I just knew not to drive to fast or I'll be in a accident. I want to meet my guardian angel and ask him I know it's a him what he's doing what I should do how do I get out from my deep pit and get help from him why my question for where I should go is not being answered and all that.
Another one scary one I was alone in the house walking to the kitchen when suddenly I blacked out. luckily I grabbed onto the cabinets before I collapsed and all I knew was to clench on hard and convince myself to wake up as much as possible that was scary because when I woke up I knew it happened before a few time when I was small and I couldn't remember that but I remembered it the day in the kitchen clearly.
I also felt very sick once laying in my bed out of the blue I couldn't breathe and I saw a very white light and a strange feeling I didn't like it at all and forced myself up. It seems very strange I believe that we ourselves can choose if we want to die or not we get a choice I don't understand but wow it was a lot of weird experiences :)
shadewhisper 22-25, F 2 Responses 0 Mar 22, 2012