... I Just Don't Think I Have OneI used to believe in soulmates.
But I believed that people had more than one person they needed to feel complete.
I don't know if I even believe any of it anymore.
My best friend tells me I am too picky, because all I want is an intelligent guy, with a decent job, who can put up with me, and my family. Apparently, I am very difficult to put up with, and my family... oh geez, they are worse.
Part of my still hopes that there is someone out there who can put up with me and my inane bullshit, but I don't have high hopes that there is.
I've been in love, I've been engaged (too many times). Nothing works out, because no one can put up with me, and if they can, they aren't strong enough to hold me when I run, which I always do.
I want it though. I want to believe that there is someone out there who is my match, my complement. I want to remember what it is like to love someone, and how it feels to be loved.
I wish I didn't, though.