Is this not perhaps the stress that makes me evade it.  Sometimes you can look so hard for something that you actually overlook what is around you.  You have a narrow vision of what you assume must be for you, based on life experiences, qualifications and a range of personal preferences that you walk with your eyes squarely focused on very limited destinations.

I don't know what I want to do with my life.  It is a question that has recurred throughout my life and now arises in a way that scolds me, shames me as there are only so many times you can set yourself up for a specified field, a specified idea of life, without looking inconsistent, flaky.  It is at present one of the primary thoughts that consumes me, as I have set a time limit on it, as I always do, and knowing that is self destructive to the aim before it starts - practicalities get involved - money and cv gaps, always we jump on the bandwagon that speeds in random places so that we can justify to others- particularly those elusive CV readers.

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Mar 25, 2009