Because Of Love And Commitment

So, I will be 40 years old in a few months. When I was 23 I was living with a boyfriend, whose father was a cop AND a preacher in a VERY small town. (Think: ONE stoplight-I'm not joking)

Anyway, we had an okay relationship. Not the best, but not too bad either.

In our foolish youth, we thought we could keep us living together a secret from his parents. My parents knew and didn't mind. One evening this boyfriend came home and said, "My parents know we are living together, we have to get married."

That was the proposal I received, and I stupidly said yes.


So to make a long story short, we had a simple wedding and was given as a gift what should have been a nice honey moon.

On our wedding night the abuse started. The rest of this belongs in another story but I just wanted to give a background.

I was divorced at 24. THANK GOD!


So, after the divorce, I dated some and got a little wild and crazy, and then when I was 30 I broke up with a guy and promised myself of year of JUST ME!

I didn't date, I didn't have sex. NOTHING.

I enjoyed this ME time so much, that before I realized it, the ONE YEAR turned into NINE wonderful happy years of freedom and self-exploration

Then, out of the sky, my current boyfriend fell into my lap, and we have been together happily for almost a year.

We hope to move in together in a year or two.

We want to take things super slow. 


And, we have spoken of getting married one day.

My dream wedding would be a Hello Kitty theme with a Hello Kitty dress. But, I figure I will be more practical. I would really like to get married at Edgar Allen Poe's Garden, but then it's a hassle and extra expense for the guests.

Ah well, plenty of time to think and dream on those things.

I just want to make sure that this time I get married for ALL the right reasons.




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3 Responses Nov 7, 2009

Hey there. You posted this a few yrs ago. Was wondering how your last relationship was going.

I am very disappointed in marriage as it's brought out the worst in me and my husband. I'm 24 and getting divorced. Although I'm still in love, I'm at a crossroads. I don't know what to do next. I'm scared and helpless.

I thinj your smart to take it slow. I am ao lonely being in a niserable marriage. There has to be someone out there who would be trustworthy. I can't trust my current husband at all and he is abusive but I can't afford a divorce or to make ends neet on what I make. I wish u the best with your new boyfriend!