Lost My Youth

As of recently I have been experiencing anxiety and depression. I work in a very demanding and time consuming retail job. I'm constantly scared if I have done something wrong or how I can improve business. I bring money home which has always brought on stress. My boyfriend is 39 years old and has a my same position but in a more relaxed retailer. He's constantly complaining about his job and how busy he's been and it makes me want to strangle him. We have not been intimate in so long I don't remember when was the last time we were together. We don't socialize much and I feel like I'm throwing my youth. I used to be reckless and fun and now I've become so incredibly two dimensional. I want to get back my life, but I don't know where to start.
Bluehues Bluehues
22-25
1 Response Jan 6, 2013

life seems to be going no where for everyone these days and i like you probably feel like there should be someone out there capable of make day to day life not feel so meaningless. deep down its not, its not for everyone. the truth is things are tough right now but maybe in a year or less something bad or good? will shake from this monotony we all call life and set u on a road to what you should and like to do, who no's what that is, but it's inevitable only if u tell ur self **** THAT ILL NEVER GIVE UP ON MY HAPPYNESS!!!