Girl With Pregnancy FetishWell this is the site to let it all hang out.. so I will do such, knowing feedback will probably be negative... but I want to share this because I know there are probably others like me that do not divulge such secrets.
I ********** watching videos of women giving birth. It seems there is no release so great... I want to feel this for myself. I feel dirty saying and feeling this but at the same time deep down I know this is something I probably shouldn't feel guilty about.
I had an abortion at 19, VERY reluctantly. Now at 22 I feel I will never be happy until I am pregnant again. Even before the abortion I fantasized about having a baby. There is no intimacy as close as the one had between parents. I want this so desperately, but at 22 there are not many guys my age that I can discuss this with.. without freaking them out so much they run away scared.
So yeah. Just had to vent. Am I crazy?