Failure

I hope I fail at what i am about to do. i know i made the choice to have that abortion, but i still feel a little empty about my choice. I know that im young and have the rest of my life ahead of me, but I just want to hold my baby. I really do.

For weeks, We've been having sex since the abortion. I put my birth control back in soon after. But maybe its a combination of the hormones and the remnants of the abortion, but I'm still very...Maternal. My body still year for the fulfillment of a babe.

I plant to start hiding the used condoms and sneaking the ***** out of them. Hopefully it would do the trick. I just want to have my baby back and i would do anything to have a baby.

But I do hope I fail at this whole pregnancy thing. I don't want it to surprise me again. But I would be the happiest woman in the world if I had a baby. :]
LoganR22 LoganR22
18-21, F
1 Response May 8, 2012

i would love to help you with that angel