Just Need To Complain
Honestly, I just feel like complaining on the internet world to a bunch of strangers. I'm tired of complaining to loved ones and especially to those who just don't fully get it.
I've already shared a story here so if anyone happens to come across this I'm sure there's a way to find it.
In a nut shell my husband and I have been trying to have a baby for 3 years now and I'm so sick of hearing "In God's time", "Maybe you just weren't meant to have a baby", "Maybe God has a different path for you", ect. ect. ect. Well quit frankly I don't believe in a religious God. People say the world is bab because of human behavior and while that is true for most things, that doesn't explain things like cancer, HIV/AIDS, other deadly diseases, inferitlity problems, and miscarriages or still borns with women who don't screw up their body during pregnacy. Ya, but anyway, that's beside the point.
I know there are way worse things that could happen than my infertility issues, but that doesn't mean it's not a painful thing to go through. No offense but how in the world is saying something like "In God's time" or "Maybe it's not in God's plan" is going to help a woman or a man with infertility issues? What makes God think a teeanger who hasn't even graduated high school deserve a child more than a married couple who eventualy had plans to have a baby? What makes God think a mother who already abuses one child deserve to get pregnant with another baby? What makes God think a woman or a man who sleeps around and wouldn't even think twice about getting an abortion deserve to have a baby? What makes God think a single mother who decided to be stupid enough to have sex with the same guy who walked out on her and her baby two years earlier deserve to get pregnant again (Sorry, that's a personal story!)? What makes God think that a couple who decided to wait for the right time to have a baby not deserve to have a baby? Seriously, what goes through people's mind when they say "In God's time." or "Maybe it's not God's plan".
Heck I'll even go way off topic here for people in a worse situation as mean. What goes through people's mind when they say to a mother and a father with a child that could possiably die from cancer "Maybe this is God's plan to make you stronger."? Ya, God's a really great God if he's giving a little boy or girl cancer to make his parents stronger or more thankful.
Anyway, to go back on topic, I really wish some people would think before they speak considering everyone in my life now knows I'm agnostic and not a Christian. On top of that I keep hearing things like "My children are a gift from God and mean the world to me. I don't know where I would be without them". Ya, ummm.......To a woman who has been trying to get pregnant for 3 years now that translates into "I was more worthy of having a child". Maybe that's not how it's meant to be, but that's how it sounds.
I've tried to find a local organzation for women/couples going through the same thing as my husband and I, but so far I've only found one that only have meetings about once every 6 months. Ya, like that'll help us meet other people in the same situation as us.
Sometimes I wish that society would take this issue more serious. We all aren't rich like miss Angelina Jolie. Most people can't even afford to adopt one child because of the outrages prices the lawyers charage and in some cases the outrages money the biological parent/parents request. Which reminds me, asking "Why don't you just adopt" isn't really much help either.