I Wish I Could

I don't want to try anymore. I don't know why I bother. I don't want to wake up every day. I don't want to go to sleep knowing I have to wake up to another day. I don't want to die, I just don't want to be around. Why? I think my story lost the plot a long time ago...
Scarlet Scarlet
18-21, F
5 Responses Jul 20, 2007

It would be nice if one of you, otherwise useless, people would come live with me. I could do with the company.

I have the same feelings. I wish that I could believe that I have a purpose here on earth, but I don't. I don't think anyone would notice if I was gone...and even if someone did notice that I was gone, its not as if they'd miss me...I feel so alone

You have to create the rest of the plot. A lot of us are messed up because we wait around to see what else life is going to throw at us. Go out there and try to make some new things happen.

I know it's hard, but hang in there. I care about you. God cares about you. You are a gift from God. Please give yourself and life a chance. You're still so young and I promise it will get better. Maybe not today, and probably not even tomorrow, but soon. I struggled for years and years and years and I'm so happy I hung in there. I'm finally able to say that I'm happy most of the time. Can you imagine that? Please imagine yourself happy and healthy and loved and hold on to that thought. Believe it! You are worth it!<br />
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Love and Blessings,

I want a job where I live in the woods and don't interact with humans unless its on my own terms. I would really enjoy just sitting there drinking in all that nature has to offer. I would be very much at peace. <br />
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I think you should finish the plot sometime and finish sending me that email back while you are at it :P<br />
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Do try and cheer up, I know thats easier said that done, I'm not very good at it either. The Cheese is always good at listening even though it has no ears. Try speaking to it sometime ... yay