Home Is Death

In 1956 I drowned and was held by the Dark Goddess. This was the first time I was ever held. (No my "real" mother never held me).

I wanted to stay with the Goddess. In 1956 I felt that I was home. I am now 65 and I want to return home.

Dewduster Dewduster
66-70, M
6 Responses Mar 26, 2009

Dear flourlady111, I didn’t "almost drown" I drowned. Lol. I died and my Holy Mother sent me back because I had lessons to learn. Ha! I hope I have learned enough that She will let me stay.<br />
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I don't pray for less pain because I know that pain is a gift from my Dark Mother. Pain motivates us to change and learn. With out pain we would still be in the Garden of Eden LMAO!...DD

I can kind of understand why you would feel this way I dont like pain -although I had 4 children. Once they were here I was fine but it was getting them here. I have never almost drowned so I am not sure how that feels - I can only pray your pain subsides!

Thank you retiredfather. I will not let myself die until I have learned the lessons She told me I needed to learn before I can come home. Thank you for respecting the Goddess in your reply. In am so weary of only hearing the Father and rarely the Mother…DD

My Dear Friend,<br />
Death is the final destination on the long road of life.<br />
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He stands with his hand outstretched for his coin before he rows us across the river Styx.<br />
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They wait for us at the entrance of the light.<br />
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She skips throught the woods with a smile and a wave.<br />
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My father will be waiting along with relatives I have never meet.<br />
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My friend from Viet Nam will be waving an American flag.<br />
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To dream of deaths journey is the final fantasy in life.<br />
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Let it not be to soon.<br />
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Pain only reminds us what peace will finally be.<br />
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I will wait for you or you wait for me.<br />
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My the Goddess bless you.

I have been in pain too long. I do feel better these last few days but I still hurt...DD

why do you feel this way amy i ask?