I Feel Guilty Even Looking At This Page to Be Honest

I had a relationship with God two years ago that was so strong and so powerful that I am ashamed to admit this.. I turned my back on God. I am sure he asked me to leave my relationship and to go West. I was confused, and thought he brought my relationship together. As for going West, I tried, it didn't pan out. After watching Evan Almighty, I have to admit, if God were to tell me to build an Ark, I would be like.. wt.. I suppose if he asked me like he did in the movie, then it would be another story. To be honest, I am a little saddened at the end of that movie.. I mean, God comes and tells Evan to build an Ark, the Ark gets built, the flood happens, the Ark saves the day.. and what.. people just go on about their business like it was no big deal.. what is up with that.. are we all really that ignorant? I don't mean to sound judgmental, I mean after all, I saw God, I am sure he said I was to leave my girlfriend, and I have. Almost 2 years later mind you, but hey, when I pray, it doesn't happen over night either. Like I said, I was confused, point is, I did it.. I am no longer ignorant to the signs of God's will. So.. now it's my turn to wait I guess. I have faith though, that my salvation will grow. That my life is in God's hands, and that he will take care of me. I no longer question when or how, I know it will. I have faith. 
31-35, M
2 Responses Jul 15, 2007

You are responsible to what God reveals to you. You will not always be comfortable with the places He brings you but you will always have peace if you know in your heart that's where He wants you to be.

Wow. Your story is pretty powerful, and yet you should never ever be ashamed ....God as our creator knows we have our limitations and frailties. He loves us despite them.