I just want to have fun again... to live and smile and just be the me I used to be. I was so much fun back in the day, before life took hold of me and pushed me into this corner. I laughed often, okay giggled, and I was bouncy and full of joy. Where did that do? What happened along the road to bring me to this? I can't even look in the mirror anymore as I no longer see that person and it scares me.
When? Why? What? went wrong??? I know part of it is growing up but why does it have to take away all of the good things that I once knew...
I still try to bring it out, at least with the kids. I love to run and play and just be silly with them and it's only then that I remember how it used to be. I grew up way too fast, too much too soon and now I suffer for days I lost, days I can never get back... left with only the memories of what once was.
... how sad am i... *sniffle* it catches up with me sometimes... like today.