Cold ShoulderWell..my first real crush was in my first year of high school. I didn't know anyone in the school, and well I didn't have the easiest time making new friends. There was this guy in my class who was...not the nicest guy. He was crude, and mean and well mostly he was a pervert.
But he was really nice to me. I mean he was still making these weird and crude jokes about me, but he had his moments when he was incredibly sweet.
Around Christmas, I was totally in love with him, and mostly in denial. I missed him so much during the holidays that my family got really annoyed with me.
Anyways, when we got back to school, he asked me if I wanted to hang out at his place. I said yes, and I was nervous the entire time. We had been chilling in his room just kinda talking, and I was content. Before I went home he kissed me. It wasn't my first kiss, but it felt like it could have been,I was that nervous.
We hung out at his place again a couple of days later and he asked me to be his girlfriend and I was really happy. However, he then dropped a small bomb.... He said "I want this to be a secret from the people at school"
At the time, I was incredibly stupid so I agreed.
Not long after that, he started to avoid me completely,and me being shy and unable to muster up the courage to confront him just let him. A month later he was flirting with one of my friends while I was sitting less than half a meter away.
So yeah, my first love wasn't that successful, and I guess the worst part is that we were in the same class throughout the entire time I spent in high school....
CutnB 18-21, F 0 Jul 1, 2012