Pain Hurts

Wow...only the most painful life experience....where to begin? How to sort through a painful past from the time I was 12 years old? Here goes. Having family members repeatedly practice sex education using me for a "dummy". Not being able to tell anyone. Mom dying when I was 12. Women chasing Dad, and finally one "catching" him and living with him for a long time before they finally married. Missing Mom at the special events in my life like Confirmation, Jr. High Grad, High School Grad, University Grad, my wedding; and having my stepmom there instead. Finding out shortly after marriage that I'd never be able to have children. Tearing my shoulder and having 4 surgeries to fix the problem, but the problem was never fixed. So much pain for such a short life.
jiggstrixie92 jiggstrixie92
51-55, F
4 Responses Jul 28, 2011

Thanks perseverer. I know others share similar pain; yet it helps writing about it.

Thanks unshakable. You have given me a boost in my faith.

I am so sorry for the pain and a young age.I was there too.It was so traumatic that i have adrenal insufficiency last 6 years.But only GOD saw me through all experiences and i was so blessed then with forgiveness that i could survive.Seek God and His Righteousness and all good things will come your way.God Bless.

jiggstixie, my heart goes out to you. What a lot of pain you have endured! I am so sorry for all your sorrows.