I haven't had that many painful experiences in my life. But I have had a couple of tramatic experiences. But the main ones would have to be watching my mother get beat to death in front of me and getting raped when I was eight years old. O yes people think I don't remember this at all. Like it was just erased from my memory. The only reason for that is because I don't like to talk about it. Why would you want to talk about seeing your mother get killed when all they really wanted was you? It's just I can't live with that all on me all the time hell I wouldn't be me if I lived with that all on my chest. Thinking that it was my fault that my mom was killed. I keep running away from my problems without fixing them. I can't keep doing that all of the time or I'm never going to be able to live a normal life. I've been without a mother for 13 years. To much but I've learned to deal with it. Yes I'll never be able to do anything with my mother but I like to think of her as still being here with me in my heart. I hate that both of these things had to happen to me at such a young age. But I don't let it bother me like most people I know. I live my life like I should.