It Could Always Be Worse
What I mean is that people handle the same experiences differently. I can not pick one thing. The horrible deaths of loved ones, rapes, abuse, illnesses, surgeries, bearing children, none of these have hurt me as long or as relentlessly as the words people have used! It might seem crazy but I'd have to say... other peoples desire to exploit, feed off, and inflict emotional and/or physical pain has become my most painful life experience. And knowing that others have suffered so much more makes it hurt all the worse. Survivors guilt, an empathetic heart and a tender conscience make life nearly unbearable for me and because of all this I have to wonder why anyone would want to hear another persons most painful life experience. But that's because I've become so paranoid and now my chest always hurts. I probably wrote this in the wrong place. Sorry.