I've experienced many setbacks in life. It would be more honest to refer to them as humiliations, punishments, and just generally incidents that cause me shame. And, a few odd actual accidents, I must admit. Though more than you might believe. So, naturally, I've developed a thick skin, what you mght call a " Shell" . So be it. It has saved me from more embarassment than I can name. And as a conseqence of these things, I am a negative person. I always look for the worst in life ( that I can imagine, anyway). You could say I expect it. Murphy's law, X 10= whatever the worst thing is, expect it. Of course I'm a realist, and know this doesn't happen all the time. Maybe even not most of the time. But, if you expect the worst, hopefully nothing worse happens. You never know ( to turn an openly optimistic quote of an optimistic person on it's head.). My view is, if it's bad, it's gonna get worse. I have no faith, much less hope. And I don't think this is a bad way to be. That way your hopes don't get up. I personally don't think anything is going to get better. But, look on the bright side, I could be wrong!
Written on November 3rd, 2008