Too Much Pain

There's many reasons I can think of, but thee one I'm hurting from most is pain in my heart. Within two years I've lost my husband's family that I cherished dearly for the reason, I was raised without brothers/sister/aunts/uncles/grandma.. etc. After I felt abanded from them.. things just went downhill. We lost our house due to foreclosure, my marriage was empty, I became very depressed, tried suicide twice, living with guilt and humilation,  my mother is dying and I can't see her, marriage is now over, heading for divorce, can't get a grip on life anymore. When it all comes down to it.. i want to kill myself because I want to!! It's my body, my right, my decision to make. 
Calif39 Calif39 36-40, F 4 Responses May 6, 2012

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do not kill yourself no matter what ur going through u r to precious to lose and u will get through u have to give yourself some time to heal and not give up

Life has a funny way of turning things around , just the way it turned your wonderful life into q living hell. But My dear the world is still spinning , it never stays at one point too long. Life is a roller coaster, your just at the point where it seems like its going downhill, but whats really happening is that its only preparing to go up again.

I lost my life to my family my house, car, i know how you feel i wish i was dead i have tried but keep living i am tired of being without my family and my kids all that i love gone i cant cope anymore i think its time to end my pain and end my unhappiness and commit suicide.

Yes but I know atleast one person that will miss you very much ! Me :(......