I Want to Kill Myself...help
Hi.First of all let me introduce myself.My name is Andrew.I'm 16,second year in high school. Love... for me it's the most important thing in life. I've fell in love before, have been rejected , felt depressed about it, but I'm here, alive and kicking. Recently i've fallen for this girl. Here's the story A couple of months ago , a friend told me she liked me. But back then i liked another girl a lot, so i ignored her. Recently i started liking, and then loving this girl. Friends say that they've talked to her and she still likes me. Yesterday, i overheard from a friend that she got a boyfriend. I started feeling very depressed. Even got to the point of standing on the bridge fence deciding if i should kill myself. I decided to call my best friend. He told me that she does not have a boyfriend and that he'll talk to her. So i didn't jump. Afterwards i came home. I don't know how i fell asleep. I dreamt about her. This morning, when i got up i felt REALY bad... I just can't shake the feeling that she's interested in another guy. Everytime i take a breath,i feel this extreme pain in my chest... like i have a knife stabbed through my heart (sometimes i wish i did). I've read blogs on how to kill yourself,and i am seriously thinking about it. I just don't want to cause pain to my family and friends, and mostly to her. I don't want she to feel guilty if i do it,and attemt something stupid as well. The saddest thing is that i had a chance and i BLEW IT.I've felt down about love before,but never... NEVER like this. I'll never find happiness, never find love.... What's the point of life if u can't find love... A life without love is like a.... Just can't find the words to describe... Everyone, please tell me what to do, cause i might end up doing something stupid.
Andrew1616 16-17, M 40 Responses 0 Sep 20, 2009