I Feel So Alone...

I always feel like killing my self, im just too much of a wimp to do anything about it, i dont like pain even if it means things will get better. My two bestest friends in the world just ditched me for no reason, 1 day we were closer than ive ever been to anybody, next they wouldnt talk to me. this happened november 1st 2008 and they both ditched me for the same person, i grew used to not talking to anyone and nearly 6 months later i found a new friend, we would have gotten closer if it werent for the fact that i had forgotten how to interact with other people. She eventually ditched me to, for the same person that my last bff did. After that i found out that my mom had breast cancer, we've never actually been very close, i would get a hit here and there, i think she liked my sister more but i still loved her. my sister who ive always been closed to went off to university, she likes it alot more there and never wants to come home. in my house we dont talk much since my parents wouldnt want to listen to me before, only listening to what my sister wanted to say that im not used to talking to them. i really just want to end the pain, but i can't bring myself to do it.

jenny95 jenny95
18-21, F
1 Response Oct 14, 2009

want to end the pain, but i can't bring myself to do it. but e hope I can do it soon I need to die